Saturday, March 26, 2011

Love floats in the air like a winter snow flurry
Falling around the people who walk by in a hurry
It whispers in their ears and taps on their shoulders
Just a polite reminder that you're still growing older
Pretty soon it's shouting with anger like the thunder
Those who are lonely are left to scutter asunder
Left to face the years contemplating their blunder
While love looks for a victim who still has that child like wonder.
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Bob Segar - Old Time Rock N' Roll

Thursday, March 24, 2011

For my siblings.

God, I miss you so damn much

I can’t find the words to say

But I know I would do anything

If I could just be with you all today,

They tell me to rope the moon

And I always find a way,

But it doesn’t matter what I accomplish

When my family is a million miles away.

Dearest siblings,

I just want you to know,

That there is nothing more in this world

Than the love for you I’ve grown.

There is no surpassing it,

There’s no way to quantify,

Just know that my love comes

In an endless supply.

All I know is my heart swells so wide

When I think of the years that are passing us by

I remember watching you both grow

So I’m writing you this poem

So that you’ll always know,

That even though I’m 2300 miles away

I think of you every minute of every single day

And every second that I am gone,

Is another second far too long.

When you were the hills, I was the music
Our love was the wind through the grass
It was always meant as temporary,
Nothing complicated or meant to last.

And here I am, at a bluff over looking the ocean
Staring down at our changing paths
I see my footsteps cemented in time
While yours are fading so fast.

Time might wash away the present
But the salty corrosion of us will last
As a distant wind carries your influence
I must accept the growth and stop dwelling on the past.
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Monday, March 21, 2011


This poem is about a battle I have seen so many young girls fight. It's heart breaking to watch, and impossible to bear. Love to those who are still fighting the battle.

I shouldn’t,

but I do.

I can’t change what I am.

You slice me with your razors

You cut me with your knives

Leave back your salty daggers

I don’t need this attack.

Pour lemon in my water

Put ice on the side

Slice the cucumbers on the table

Are you having a good time?

The sweat beads down my spine

I feel you growing in my skin

I taste your smell

I can hear your kin.

I shouldn’t,

But I do.

I can’t change what I am.

The storm outside is raging

It’s trying to get in

But I have my own battles to fight

I’m just dying to get thin.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Mexican Pizza - The Bomb Dot Com

This recipe is so mind blowingly good I will give you your money back if you hate it. No I won't, I just said that so you would make it. Please make the pizza? Every time you procrastinate making this pizza, God kills a kitten. I'm serious. No I'm not. Anyways...

A handful of sauteed white onions
A handful of steamed asparagus spears
A small handful of cooked black beans (I use canned black beans)
About a cup of Mozarella (shreded or sliced, whatever you prefer)
A small handful of cooked shrimp
About half a cup to a cup of sliced mango
A very small dash of fresh chopped cilantro


FIRST, steam the asparagus, cook the shrimp and saute the onions. Chop up your mango and cilantro and set them aside for later. Open and drain the can of black beans and set them aside as well. If you want you can do all of this a day in advance and then just pull it out when you need to make the pizza.

While this is happening put a tortilla on a baking sheet. Spread a good layer of mozzarella cheese on the tortilla. Put it in the oven at 350 degrees until the cheese is melted and the tortilla is crisp (I had it in for ten minutes). Pull it out.

That's what she said.

Spread a thick layer of pesto on top of the mozzarella:

Sprinkle the black beans and the sauteed onions on top of the pesto:

Add the cilantro and asparagus tips:

Add the sliced mango and cooked shrimp:

Numz time!


This recipe was first shared with me by a band that lived in my college friends garage. I'm not even kidding. When she invited me over for dinner and told me "the band" was cooking, I had my doubts. It was more like I WAS TERRIFIED.

For starters, they played shows wearing nothing but robes, drank all the time and probably did more drugs than the Rolling Stones. So all-in-all, they were great role models...

I wonder what ever happened to that band of boys? Eh, drugs are bad kids, eat more pizza. SPEAKING OF PIZZA...HOW BOUT THAT RECIPE, EH?? What did you think? Changed your world huh? Told you so. You should listen to me more often, I'm always right. No I'm not. Just this one time. Don't tell anyone I said that.

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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Adele - Rolling In The Deep

Um, this music video IS AMAZING. The lyrics to this song are UNBELIEVABLE. They capture every broken hearted emotion I have ever had!

Love this!

Strangely even though it's about heart break, it's incredibly uplifting and empowering at the same time! I love her!

Adele - Rolling in The Deep (Dan Clare Club Remix)

Sigh. This has been on repeat since it was shared via Facebook by a friend.

A really hot friend.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Finding Me.

There was a time when I was wild and free

There was a time when I couldn’t find me

There was a time when I was madly in love

This is a time when I am nothing of the above.

I’m not that same little girl

Who is going to fawn all over you

I’m not lonely anymore

I know when what you say isn’t true.

I see you, I see who you are

And me, I am exactly what I need to be.

I don't have time to date.

I am glad I experienced that frenzied emotion
I learned so much from my blind devotion
Now I am stronger on my own
And no longer afraid to be alone,

Right now this is exactly what I need
To do my own thing
So I can eventually succeed.

Maybe someday I will find
A neutral companion
Equally independent
Without reckless abandon

I'm no longer worried
Because I'm in a zone
Where my world is best
When I am alone.

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Kat Danson - "Overload" (+lyrics)

OH. I love this girl. Her voice is beautiful!!!!!!!

This song is perfect.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Terabyte Frenzy - Harry Potter (Dubstep Remix)

I just experienced my first double, no TRIPLE eargasm.


Harness it.

Harness it, own it, feel it.
I let this grow so I could water it with tears,
I'm supportive of the change,
It just harbors all my fears.

I will never again cry
Like I did last September,
May brought a numbness I can't remember
You have given me lightness in the dark
And for that I appreciate you
And support this adventure on which you embark.

I don't have to be happy
I'm allowed to cry
As long as you don't see it
I can say goodbye.
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The further you pull

The harder I squeeze tight

Goodbye, farewell,

Though these words aren’t quite right,

Nothing fits and I don’t know why

I guess it’s cause I know

This isn’t goodbye.

Tenacious D - Dude (I Totally Miss You) - 10

Is it too soon to miss someone who hasn't left yet? I know. I'm an ass.

An Awkward Moment


Saturday, March 12, 2011

The Path

One foot in the future

The other in the past

Your energies are shifting

Into something that could last,

You’re startled to recognize

That Spring feeling you had lost

Has started to re-grow inside

What was once covered in a frost,

I see the steps your taking

Are timid and unsure

Rest assured fate has taken

The steps to allow this to endure,

Step lightly but with confidence

Don’t dwell upon the past

Have faith in your future

You’re on the right path.

The Bell

I can hear it in the distance

The bell rings loud and clear

But the sound doesn’t reassure me

Because you’re not all here

I can feel the tickle

Of a future born of light

But if you really want it

Then you’re gonna have to fight

So can you here the Bell ring

It tolls so gentle in it’s sound

But the reverberations of the consequences

Are clanging all around

I can hear the Bell ring

I am so hungry for the sound

It’s my only forewarning

That you’re coming around

I’ve given you an inch

And you’ve taken your mile

But I must stop this melting

Of my heart when I see your smile

I am putting up my boundaries

But I’ve kept down all my walls

But if I am to have what I see

I must make you give your all

So can you here the Bell ring

It tolls so gentle in it’s sound

But the reverberations of the consequences

Are clanging all around

I can hear the Bell ring

I am so hungry for the sound

It’s my only forewarning

That you’re coming around.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


I’m quite conflicted

You see, this goes against all I am.

But my desires override my senses,

Leaving me grasping at my lost sense of direction.

And so I sit and spin while my demons rejoice at their win.

Caught between the web of my fantasy

And what I know of reality, I stand confused.

Half of me wants to stay the course,

The other is ready to give in.

So the question I ask myself is

To what extent can I continue to give?

After all is said and done,

Can I live and let live?

Is this a quest for truth and growth?

Or is it about the attention I crave?

What is the damage, what will be my cost?

And why must I continue to spin

In this never ending web, forever lost?

Monday, March 7, 2011

Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you know who I am,
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you can be my man.

You only want
The character you've built in your mind
You only want that girl you see
You wanna call her mine

Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you know who I am,
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you can be my man.

If you'd stop and really take the time
You would see
She's not meant to be
Anybodys 'mine.'

Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you know who I am,
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you can be my man.

Put aside your desperation please,
Take a closer look at what it is you see
You might be surprised to find
I'm not the girl you want me to be,

Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you know who I am,
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you know who I am,
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
You think you know who I am,
You think you know who I am,
You think you know who I am.

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The Lattice

The sparkling diamond I've built in my mind
Is a perfect crystal matrix that I'll never find
So I push through the soil, peat and moss
I'm buried to my knees but I cannot bear this cross
I push my physical limits to build up my self esteem
And spend my evenings at the loom spinning up more mystical dreams.
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The choice was not hard...

Friday, March 4, 2011

End Of Ze World


I guess I need something refined

With a touch of a wild side

I want someone to match my pace

I don’t care about color or race

I don’t care about your past

I just want to know you have passion

You have to support my dreams

And have some of your own

If you’re not an individual

Then I’m better off alone.

So if you have class

Purity of heart and some ambitions in mind

Then sir you might find

I’m your one of a kind.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Wii Workouts - Just Dance - Cotton Eye Joe

I really REALLY want this, LOL! It looks like HOURS of Jessi entertainment!!!!

I would so totally do this with the blinds open too. Cause my neighbors need a laugh.


My glistening web of fantasy

Has been torn by your reality

And it’s such a waste, it’s a total loss

It’s obvious now that you’re definitely gone

I wanted to save you, to lift your addiction,

But it’s clear now that it’s more than a mere affliction.

So I take in what I can, and govern for the cost,

Cause it’s only a matter of time before you’re completely lost.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011


It's like the sunlight
Streaming through my blinds
Warming my thoughts
Clearing my mind.

It's the chocolate curls
On my ice cream
The salt spray of the ocean
Coming through the window
As I dream.

I remember summers
Riding through our town
Burning my excess energy
As I caroused around,

Pancakes in the morning
You'd wait there with a smile
I can't forget these images
although it’s been a while.

Last time I was home, I went by my old stomping grounds,
The house has been remodeled, and you’re no longer around,
I feel like I need to tell you that you’re still my guiding light,
and that even though eleven years has gone by I’m thinking of you tonight.