Saturday, January 29, 2011

I Don't Know What to Say

Please don’t be offended

By the words I’m about to say

You’ve done nothing wrong here

There certainly is no call for foul play

You’re a fantastic person

Though I don’t know you too well

But you’re genuine intentions

Shine through your shy little shell

I guess I’m just not interested

In the game we were to play

I don’t see the point in dancing with the devil

When I know that you can’t stay

No, you haven’t done a thing wrong

And I harbor no feelings either way

Since I don’t really know you

I don’t quite know what to say

Just know that I enjoyed you

But I must call an end to this game

I don’t know if we will be friends

But I know no one’s to blame.

Louie, that's the name of this tree.

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Sometimes all you need
Is to listen to the whisper of the trees
Hear the voices in the wind
Go back to nature, back to kin

Relax your mind
To find your heart
Set yourself and this
World apart

In this meadow you will find
There is magic in the snow
And the way the tree’s dance
As the afternoon winds blow

Hear the soft crunch of ice
Beneath your feet
Observe this quiet world
And find yourself complete.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Will Power

Sometimes it feels like life continually throws obstacles in your way and you end up having a stroke, having every delay possible in your experiments, having to start over about ten times and then being forced to drive four hours in the rain in the middle of the night with one headlight and no windshield wipers to Los Angeles to finish your Master's thesis because a FRIGGING pine cone dropped out of the sky and hit your car...or something like that...anyways, the moral of the story is, sometimes you have to face obstacles and the odds aren't always in your favor. That's where willpower comes into play. I wrote this poem for those instances.

Go ahead and challenge me
I dare you to tell me I’m wrong
I dare you to tell me one more time
that I won’t make it here that long

Every word that you berate me with
just serves to fuel my fire
every time you knock me down
I jump up with ten times more desire

So this is me flipping off the universe
and telling you I don’t give a damn
about how many obstacles you throw at me
You obviously underestimate who I am

You say my words aren’t always right
I say you don’t want to pick that fight
You say this is a man’s world
I say I’m no ordinary girl

So watch as I strike this match
watch me as I make it burn
I have the strength and the will power
to change the direction the world will turn.

Thursday, January 27, 2011


I'm really homesick tonight
Just wanna curl up and cry
I'm feeling quite dead
and empty inside.

I am out of my element
And I feel so alone
When I get defeated like this
I just wanna go home

I'm homesick tonight
Nothing about this feels right
It's like I can't get comfortable and
I'm missing my family tonight

Wish I could see my siblings
Call my best friend over to soothe
These self hating thoughts
This foul, hateful mood

Yeah I'm homesick tonight
I'm feeling so alone
And when I feel down like this
I just wanna quit and run home.

The SLO Experiment

This is home and I miss it so much I want to just curl into a ball and cry. This video captures everything I love and miss about where I grew up, they did a fantastic job.


Brennen`s Yes Dance

BAHAHAHAHAHHAH, how adorable!!!!!

New Start

Change is a terrifying thing
but don’t be scared to take that leap
don’t pay attention to your nerves
just follow your heart and move your feet

People pull at you
and don't want you to go
but your path is just beginning
I’ve been there so I know

So ride the sail of change
because out of all the pain
doors will open and soon you’ll find
the world is what you’ll gain

Ride the tide of new beginnings
set ablaze for your new start
you can’t go wrong
as long as you follow your heart.

Snort! Cackle! Har har! LOLlerskate!

Dearest Lizard King,

I most definitely hate you
you’re a deceitful, selfish human being
what you did to me was cruel
it went far and beyond being mean

You spent years using me as a toy
and when I called you at your game
you turned the tables and told me
that it was your father to blame

You are a coward
and I was too blind to see
that you were spineless
and wrong for me

You told me twice
you saw me as your wife
you wanted to have children
the words still cut me like a knife

to use my dreams against me
is the cruelest form of torture
you tried lecturing me once on class
but you know nothing, you’re an ass.

I want to hold my head high
but you cut at my strings
and made me feel less than human
took my pride, took my being.

So I try to concur my hate
and reconstruct my pride
while you take your lizard king form
and find somewhere new to hide.

This was inspired by this song:

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Boys of Summer - Bree Sharp

Love this song, love this artist, which makes this a good combination of 'Jessi loves.'

Future Folly

A man stumbled along
a broken path
causing havoc with his emotions
and drudging up the past

This led him to the falsehood of
thinking his heart was permanently maimed
After much investigation he found
that a young maiden was to blame

so he drowned out his sorrows
living on borrowed time
dwelling in the pain
of losing something he couldn't find

and even when perfection
presented itself in his path
he avoided all the promises
because he didn’t think it’d last.

Years later he’s still broken
afraid to take the risk
he’ll live forever lonely
and will never know true bliss.

Morgan Page - Fight For You (Audio)

This post brought to you by a grad student who is dancing in her lab...

Richard Vission & Static Revenger ft Luciana - I Like That (Original Mix)

There is a time in all our lives
where we must be alone
to find ourselves
to grow

So lose yourself in the rhythm
of your lonely heart
and relish the growth
as your emotions tear you apart

The world is always changing
so find your special niche
and stay true to your dreams
no one else will grant your wish

you think you’ve found the answer
but love is a drug and you're too young
so you pack away the lesson
for when you find that special someone

Stay tight to your path
you alone choose your course
make decisions you’ll be proud of
life’s to precious for remorse

but damn it’s hard at times
to keep going at it alone
I keep looking forward to the day
when I have a steady home

The day will come when I can settle
with someone else who’s learned
that dreams don’t come to wishers
they’re something that you’ve earned.

Sometimes it's hard to focus on my goals because there are other things I would rather be doing...but I know if I lose my focus I will be unhappy in the end. This poem is about that struggle to keep going in the face of loneliness.

Gigi D'Agostino - L'Amour Toujours ( Official Video )

As it turns out I love everything this man does.

Gigi D'Agostino - Bla Bla Bla ( Official Video )

This song never gets old to me...

Avril Lavigne - What The Hell

Nothing like telling every girl in America to be a slut...


You are like a shiny toy
locked in a display I can’t enjoy
So close to finally grasping what I want
my greatest muse has become a taunt

Trying to reach out
I want to grab this fantasy
but what I imagine in my head
keeps eluding me

For so long your ignorance
made me feel unlovable
but now that I can have you
you’re untouchable

This dream is such a tease
Now that I know you want me
Separated by time and space
I’ve gotta get oughta this place

For so long your ignorance
made me feel so gullible
but now that I can have you
you’re untouchable

For so long your ignorance
made me feel illogical
but now that I can have you
you’re untouchable.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Bob's Burgers - Sacred Cow - Awesomesauce


"I wanna touch it, I wanna feel it between my toes!"

"I have an MUSIC, there I said it uhnz uhnz uhnz."

"Bob, I'm a castrated steer."

"I'm a married man."

Russian Girl Thrown Off Roof

I saw this on Tosh.O tonight...these people are freaking nuts! Holy cow!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Sunday, January 23, 2011

2300 Miles Away

Cause I like public humiliation? I don't know...I need to find a keeper...anyways, I wrote this song. Thank you for listening! XOXO

Saturday, January 22, 2011

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Cinnamon vanilla almond waffles with cinnamon toast tea moonchild style.

So much win in this dinner. So much win.
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Mumford & Sons - White Blank Page (Bookshop Sessions)

This is the definition of beautiful.

How to Make a Cup of Moonchild Tea:

For starters, you're going to need the Moonchild Tea anthem:

And then you will need some key ingredients:

1. Celebrate tea, which is a loose leaf black tea with caramel and vanilla flavoring AND SPRINKLES! (available for purchase from this lovely) and a tea diffuser to hold the leaves OR if you aren't able to do this you can just buy the little bags of black tea available from a store near you! It won't be quite the same, but it will be close!
2. Homemade or store bought whipped cream (recipe for the homemade version below)
3. Sprinkles (I've said it before and I will say it again, EVERYTHING is better with sprinkles!)
4. A teacup. "Pinkies up, elbows out! That's the way I tip my cup!" :)

First things first, let's steep the tea! Take your diffuser and fill it half full of the tea leaves and place it in boiling hot water for two to three minutes like so:

If you want to make homemade whipped cream (my FAVORITE!) here is the super EASY recipe:
Get heavy whipping cream and pour it into a bowl (like 2 cups) and then add about a tablespoon of vanilla extract, two tablespoons of sugar and whip with a blender until it forms whipped cream like this:

Take your tea diffuser out of your tea now and add some delicious honey! I like honey made by bee's from avocado trees or orange orchards. Fun fact: eating honey that is made locally will help give you natural immunity to allergens!

Now start adding dollops of the whip cream to the top of your tea, just plop them in, don't be scared!

Don't be shy! Keep going!

I-Loo is totally salivating right now...


Enjoy your cup of Moonchild Tea <3



Amazing 3D Art!

Entering The Stronghold | Audio Visual Animation from Matthias Müller on Vimeo.

My favorite Kerli photographs:

She is brilliant, as is her photographer Vespertine.

I do not own this picture. It was originally taken by Brian Ziff (click here for his amazing website) and the photoshop montage you see above was created by this brilliant person.

Better Than Yo' Mama's Waffles

2 cups bisquick mix
1 1/3 cups milk (I use whole milk)
1 tsp pure almond extract
1 tsp pure vanilla extract
1 tablespoon cinnamon
1 egg
2 tablespoons vegetable oil

Combine all ingredients, mix well and put into waffle maker.
There is a light on the top of your waffle maker that will tell you when to remove the waffle. :) On mine the light goes off when it is done.

I enjoy my waffles with butter and Karo corn syrup, but feel free to top these delicious little morsels with whatever your heart desires.

Thursday, January 20, 2011


Lady Gaga - Scheiße (Remix) by gagadaily

Holy. Eff.

I LOVE HER or WHOEVER made this remix.

I just DIED of happiness! DIED!!!!!!!!!

P!nk - F**kin' Perfect (Clean Version)

This video is so beautiful that I cried.

Something Beautiful.

It builds and it builds

Till it drags you down

The things you put off

Pull you underground

Then you’re walking upside down

And nothing seems quite right

Until you get back the control

That you once held so tight

Gone are the blue skies

Replaced now with boring gray

While you waste away indoors

Checking your life away

The to-dos are never ending

So don’t get lost in the mix

And remember that when life drags you down

There’s more to it than this

Working is a means to an end

But don’t get caught up in the dash

Life’s too short to miss the beauty

Surrounding everything you have

There is always some kind of trouble

Because life deals a tricky card

Keep tight to your optimism

And nothing will seem that hard

Looking back now through the years

I can see the ugly lessons learned

And from each one I received

Something beautiful in return.

Middle Class Rut - New Low (Official Video)

My bff Jac said it best when she described this song as 'amazeballs.'

A lil Thursday lurve for ya :)

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Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Monday, January 17, 2011


You pull back and hide

And I never know what’s

Going on inside

That handsome head of yours

2300 miles away

I fret I sway I pull away

2300 miles away

I dream of you I pray you’ll stay

One day it’s hot

The next day it’s not

It’s nothing at all

I throw myself at your wall

2300 miles away

I fret I sway I pull away

2300 miles away

I dream of you I pray you’ll stay

I want you here

I need you now

To comfort me

And tell me how

2300 miles away

I fret I sway I pull away

2300 miles away

I dream of you I pray you’ll stay

2300 miles away


I Keep Pricking My Heart

I keep pricking my heart

Trying to make it bleed

But nothing changes

Inside of me

It’s always the same

Half step beat

The same broken sound

It’s made since you left me

I keep moving on

And trying to find someone new

But there isn’t a soul out there

Who peaks my interest like you do

I’m so bored with love

So I just give up

Ain’t that the saddest thing?

It’s just a stupid ring...

I’m not sure it’s a mistake

I know what I’m doing is right

But I’m not sure what my path is

And I’m lonely tonight

Still searching for someone

To meet the beat of a different drum

Like that of my lonely heart

Cause I’m just too young

To be done in love.

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Sunday, January 16, 2011

Kerli - Army Of Love

I've been waiting for new music from this girl forever! She is amazingly talented and really devoted to her fans. I love her style, it's very inspiring. The world can learn a lot from this little woman.

Other blogs are okay too!

I found my new food blog mecca. I LOVE THIS WOMAN and her recipes are the SHIZZNIZZLE. Yeah, that's a real word. Probably. Maybe. Just shut up and go to her blog.

Things I don't need but need to survive.

I want to do this to my hair. BADLY.

With the current corn rows on the sides of my head and my natural curls...ZOMG, I AM SO EXCITED TO DO THIS. WANT. WANT. WANT!!!!


Last one. FOR REALSIES this time.


She is my hero and I want her eyebrow tattoos.

SXSW 2009 Music Video: Amanda Palmer - Leeds United


"I Need a Hero", by Bonnie Tyler

Bwahahahahahah this is going to be stuck in your head ALL DAY NOW.

I win.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

You should go pee first. Seriously.

I spend entirely too much time online. Thank you to Carrie Thompson for posting these to her Facebook and making my entire day better by sending me LOLlerskating.

For clarification purposes, I am the one on the right:

Again, via Carrie: "Someday over the rainbow...."


Via Carrie Thompson: "I have been this angry, but I couldn't find my cactus..."


For starters, this person REALLY needs to clean their keyboard...

This is my roadmap for life:

AND last but not least...if this were true I would actually use public restrooms.

Although I am not sure why I would want to eat bacon served in a public restroom.

Tokio Hotel - World behind my Wall: Guitar Cover by Steffen Schöps

Damn. This boy is talented with a guitar...

Astronaut - "Who Killed Amanda Palmer" Video Series: Part 2

I adore this song so very much.

Amanda Palmer "Astronaut" Live at Paradise Rock Club Boston

I'm a sucker for passionate performances and the lyrics are brilliant.


I'm convinced that she's the greatest woman to ever live. LOVE HER SO HARD.

amanda palmer - "gaga, palmer, madonna", a kitchen-ukulele-blogsong

Bahahahaaaaa, I think this woman is freaking awesome!!!

Things that make me squeeeeee with happiness:

I wish I knew who took this picture. All I have is a link to the source I got it from, it was a link sent to me on Facebook. This picture makes me so happy!!! Click HERE for the source link.

Lykke Li - Everybody but me

Love the unique quality and quiet youthfulness of this song.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011


My head feels like
It's going to explode
My vision is blurry
My senses are on overload
The pain trickles down my back
While the flames in my mind
Launch another attack.

The lights revel in my eyes
As they gather their spoons
To dig at the craters
While I wail and croon
So I hide in my cavern
And beg for reprieve
From this reoccurring pain
that won't let me be.

Growing up.

I challenged myself over my vacation. I challenged myself to face something I ran away from, something that was incredibly difficult for me to over come and face. So when I went back to California, I challenged myself to face it again. To face this obstacle after months of emotional healing and growth to see if I was finally strong enough to face it...and I was. It felt really great. I am still healing and growing to some extent, but to know that I was strong enough to put my foot in the water when for so long I have been running in the other direction was amazing. Maybe next time I will be able to jump in...

Home - Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros Acoustic Cover (Jorge & Alex...

This is the cutest thing I have ever seen in all of my life. I absolutely love this song, but mostly I adore this cover of the song. My GOODNESS!!!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

The Magic Tree

I'm escaping into the magic tree
Leaving the world
To a place where worries
And illness can't find me

The elves come out
The fae rejoice
My magic little kingdom
Has found its voice

Cancer cannot find us
Death doesn't exist
In a land where
I create the guest list

So gather round the bark
Rejoice in the shade
Of the magic tree's leaves
In the kingdom I made.
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Sunday, January 2, 2011

I believe

I believe
In the kinda love found in dreams
The kind that makes a heart
Give blood curdling screams

I believe
In cyanide pumping
Through my veins
Charging my thoughts
For you, only you.

I believe
In something you cannot create
It manifests itself inside
Then crawls through every pore
Until you cease to be
And you cannot give anymore

I believe in love
Of the purest kind
Like a white hot light
It leads the deaf and blind
I cling to it for my next breath
Because this love
Is all I have left.
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I keep dreaming about this piece of artwork. It's almost haunting me at this point, so I guess I will have to learn to paint.