I’m quite conflicted
You see, this goes against all I am.
But my desires override my senses,
Leaving me grasping at my lost sense of direction.
And so I sit and spin while my demons rejoice at their win.
Caught between the web of my fantasy
And what I know of reality, I stand confused.
Half of me wants to stay the course,
The other is ready to give in.
So the question I ask myself is
To what extent can I continue to give?
After all is said and done,
Can I live and let live?
Is this a quest for truth and growth?
Or is it about the attention I crave?
What is the damage, what will be my cost?
And why must I continue to spin
In this never ending web, forever lost?