I saw a happy couple
in the parking lot
they were all over each other
drunk on new found infatuation
the scent of rabid sex clung to them
an aura of ignorant happiness
hung in the air they laughed in.

I saw them giggle when he pinned
her to the side of the car
and I could almost feel her heart race
i remember how my fingers would tremble
how it felt so strong that it hurt to
make eye contact.

It's getting better all the time.
Today I can breathe in
I can breathe out
the pains still within
but I don't freak out.

I am a ticking time bomb
ready to explode
your love left me so alone
my ego is bruised
but I am the strong one
no bottomless love will take my life

one promise was all I asked of you
silent strength and a passion to survive
will get me through
but I can feel you in my bones
and this hole in my chest
it's blazen and alive
throbbing pain is what I feel
the dull ache of losing myself
in our relationship
and now I'm searching for
the woman I once knew
before I loved you.

I breathe in and I breathe out
and the sun rises and the sun sets
my heart still beats and
I flex my lungs for life

There will be life after you.

I'm trying to get slim.

I’m patching the hole in my chest
With donuts and the gym
My heart is filled with lemon crème
But I’m trying to get slim

Cause I had to let you go
And now I am on my own
And eventually I might meet someone
Though right now I’m happiest alone.

I can’t imagine you with someone else
Will you hold their hand
And giggle in bed?
Will they say the things we said?

I’m patching the hole in my chest
With donuts and the gym
My heart is filled with lemon crème
But I’m trying to get slim

I can’t put an X in front of your name
You’re so much more than that
And I pray that I don’t lose our friendship
Because life without you isn’t a life at all.

I know right now I am happiest alone.
For days the silence killed me
You haunted me like a ghost
I reached for you, and touched you almost.

I’m patching the hole in my chest
With donuts and the gym
My heart is filled with lemon crème
But I’m trying to get slim

I put down my armor
And you pierced me right through
And now I might spend the rest of my life
Trying to forget you.

I’m patching the hole in my chest
With donuts and the gym
My heart is filled with lemon crème
But I’m trying to get slim.

Last break up post I SWEAR

Strong Bitch.


I'm a strong bitch
silent strength without reserve
I know what I want and
I get what I deserve

My heart pumps blood
filled with your cyanide
you can run boy
but you can't hide

From your e-e-empty promises
you lurk in disguise
well you're everything I loved
and all that I despise

I'm a strong bitch
silent strength without reserve
I know what I want and
I get what I deserve.

I regret to inform you.

I pull over because I can't see
my grief, my tears, they blind me.
I'm running from you so you won't see
all of my vulnerabilities.

I love you, I will for all of my life,
but I am leaving you because
you won't make me your wife.

Sobbing into my skirt,
crying into the night
I'm grabbing my void
and I'm holding on tight.

I want it to hurt
I want to cry
because if enough tears fall then
I can say goodbye

Loves not dead
it's right here
running from me
but I hold on in fear

The moment I met you
I thought you were the one
but I regret to inform you
this is over and done.

I love you, I will for all of my life,
but I'm leaving you because
you won't make me your wife.

It's one simple promise
that only I could make
but what I asked from you
you couldn't fake

and all of this time
and all of my love
are wasted and gone
to the heavens above

the moment I met you
I thought you were the one
but I regret to inform you
this is over and done.

I love you, I will for all of my life.
but I am leaving you because
you won't make me your wife.

-Jessi Ghezzi



I am writing up a storm. I can't help it.

Just some thoughts.

Soldier of Love


There’s no going back
Only forward
I push through the haze
I fall through the wall
I land on my feet
Time and again.

The net of your love
Is nowhere to catch me
I stand alone
As independent as I can be.

I will build and rebuild
This structure I stand in
My life is a dream
And yet it’s so candid

The pain drowns me out
But I can stand it
I’m a soldier of love
A bearer of truth
The teller of stories
From near and from far
I grasp for the wisp of a dream
A fantasy
That I had to let go
Of you and me.

When all else had failed
I thought you would catch me
My safety net failed
And now there’s catastrophe

I am a soldier of love.
The bearer of peace.
On the wings of a dove
I sing like a sailor
Lost at sea
I search for what’s left
Of you and me.

-Jessi Ghezzi


It's not perfect yet. But this is the skeleton of one of the songs I am working on. You're going to start seeing a lot more of them. Sorry.

Another One Bites the Dust

I appears that every radio station is insisting on playing nothing but love songs about heartbreak, breaking up, being sad, missing that one amazing person, blah blah blah. It was for this reason that I cried tears of JOY when this song came on Pandora today. Amen.

I just broke up with my boyfriend of almost five years. I feel wretched. I feel alone. My jaw hurts from crying. I am a strong girl, and I can do anything. Now I am going to take the world on, head on, alone. I wish I had someone holding my hand, but sometimes you have to walk alone.

I can do this.

Jim Carrey, I love you.

DO NOT WATCH THIS VIDEO if you hate life, never want to laugh and generally like being a crank ass. I REPEAT if you hate laughter and all things great in the world DO NOT CLICK THE PLAY BUTTON.

Thank you for listening.

Also, I got a new acoustic electric guitar today and her name is Luna and she is THE BEST GUITAR ON THE PLANET. Not that I am biased or anything. Anyways...PRESS PLAY!

Do it.

The Ross Sisters...aka The Incredi-Bendi Sisters ;)

Okay, so the music is kind of well, annoying. But the things these girls do...are CRAZY!!!!!!!! They are like pieces of RUBBER! I have never seen anyone so flexible...

Just watch the video. You will see what I mean.

I want to see this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You can see by my excessive use of exclamation points that I am very excited to see this movie! Look at the cinematography (did I spell that right?)! Look at the sea life! Look at EVERYTHING! This is going to be so great (and I am officially a complete and total nature geek now, thanks)!





I thought you might need a break from my excessive postings on Lady GaGa. See, I couldn't even get through this post without mentioning her name. While I am at it, lets also mention the greatest band to ever live: Tokio Hotel. I am done now.

No I'm not.

I have to tell you a funny story. This story starts with a girl. I won't mention any names in order to protect her dignity (ahem, shifts uncomfortably). You see this GIRL, who may or may not have brown curly hair...just RECEIVED her Master's degree on Monday night (PARTY!!!!!!!). She then went to the gym on Tuesday, full of life and accomplishment, also the desire to be rail thin. Anyways. When she walked in the gym, everyone kept staring at her. She felt hot, on top of the world, educated. Clearly this was a sign from the universe that kharma was sending good things her way, and that maybe all this gym business was finally paying off and they were clearly all staring at her ass. It was at this point that a small child taped her on the elbow and she turned elegantly down and asked, "Yes, dear?" To which the golden and clearly admiring child said:

"Why do you have your sunglasses on?"

The end.

It's Lady HaHa Week!

It is Lady HaHa Week on this blog! Enjoy this spoof of Alejandro. LAUV LAUV LAUV it!

Telephone TIMES TWO!!!!!!! YES!!!!!

I like this one the best!

A remake of the Telephone Video...

Sir, your booty dance has changed my life. Thank you.

Bear Sleeping Bag. (AWESOME!)

I want it. The end.

Thank you to The Urchiness who told me about this via Facebook. I WANT IT.

http://www.toxel.com/inspiration/2009/11/25/bear-sleeping-bag/

**I am not responsible for anyone who buys this as a result of this post and gets eaten by a bear, thanks for listening.