Yellowstone

 The pine

The pine trees are as comforting as grandmas shag carpets in the 80s

Even though the pine pollen is choking me

The sharp slap of mountain air wakes me up with vigor

Lakes and rivers are a glass reflection of a Mountain View that must be an illusion 

This place can’t be real 

Natures carving’s starkly aligned

As the snowy peaks of mountains stretch across the sky

Fingers of needles painting along their base

While water milks along the meadows of bison, elk and moose

I see your cars stretching in a line

Clamoring to remember a nature so sublime 

Millions flock here to remember a time

When we would have died of dysentery had we tried to make it in these snow covered mountains and valleys

Nothing compares to natures mountain home,

Yes, this is Yellowstone.

My affection 

Is your rejection

I’m just floating 

On the clouds of love

And drowning 

In the doubts

Of your treason

I keep asking for 

A reason

You can’t find the words

So my mind fills in the blanks

Phoenix

 Orange song Phoenix 

Cut yourself down

And sew her back together

Too many imperfections

To keep us together

No, don’t you dare turn around

No, don’t you dare tear her down

Like a phoenix she rises with the dawn

To reshape this ground /and tear up this town /as she adjusts her crown 

Like a cape of glitter you cannot hold

She’s gonna fly cause she’s just too bold

You don’t realize the power she holds

Just wait and see boy, as she flips the controls 

Your gaslighting and fooling can’t last forever

You can’t keep all your lies together 

No, don’t you dare turn around

No, don’t you dare tear her down

Like a phoenix she rises with the dawn

To reshape this ground and tear up this town 

Just step aside while I adjust my crown

Dead Dead Dead

 Dead dead dead

Once upon a time

I had a dream

Now it’s dead dead dead

Once upon a time you made me scream

Now nothing is said said said

Ain’t life a peach

Something bout being on a beach

Tell me your love story, let’s dine

I’ll bring the cheese you bring the wine

Once upon a time 

I had a dream 

Now it’s dead dead dead 

Once upon a time you made me scream 

Now nothings said said said

When your words fail you

Where do you go

Exhaustion flailing

I’m letting you go

Ain’t life a peach

Something bout being on a beach

Tell me your love story, let’s dine

I’ll bring the cheese you bring the wine

Once upon a time 

I had a dream 

Now it’s dead dead dead 

Once upon a time you made me scream 

Now nothings said said said

Show me

 I want to dive into a deep ocean depth

Deep enough to keep my feelings at bay

Show me the depths of emptiness

Because I’m ready to crush this mess

Show me show me show me how to let it go

Show me show me show me how to let it go

When memories plague me

I dance in the depth of ink

Swirling parchment speaks 

Into a mind so bleak

Show me show me show me how to let it go

Show me show me show me how to let it go

I’m in the bottoms, choking on jagged stones

Wondering where my trust can go

Once it’s been burned into my mind

I see it all the time

Show me show me show meeeee

Written to I was all over her by salvia path 

Poster People

 Poster people

They've decided what you meant based on what you said 

they've never met you but they know it's in your head 

they love you they're obsessed with you 

they hate how you feel 

they've never seen anything at all that's real 

they're not interested in your tears unless it makes them feel moved 

they want the words on your papers and the blood from your feud 

they wanna see you all the time 

but they don't wanna know you 

they hate your bad habits and they just wanna show you 

how you're supposed to act 

who you're supposed to be 

it's getting exhausting trying to be the poster people me

 I’m just over here

Reading Elizabeth Thomas verses

And wondering how hard it would be

To learn about curses

And would it make me better

To enact my revenge

Or would it leave me like Medusa

Owned by the snakes on my head

Was it sticky sweet goodness

And new found excitement for you?

Was the joy worth my undoing

A midlife crisis that I saw through…

It came as a surprise to you that I could fall out of love 

And you drone on about the here and now’s

And all your improvements and work on yourself 

Do nothing to change that you broke your vows

A marriage isn’t an experiment 

It’s a sacred bond you make

A forever promise 

That you faked.