I could have stayed.

I could have stayed so easily

It’s easier to stay in your comfort zone

Than it is to face adversity.

I could have worked things through

I could have continued to pretend

That I was in love with you,

I’m so close now, as a matter of fact

It’s amazing to see how far I’ve come

When I turn around and look back.

So many days I spent crawling

In a pit of despair

But I built myself a foundation

Test it if you dare

I remember the days I spent

Feeling lowly and weak

Didn’t have a penny

My lows were at their peak,

But I had a dream and a vision in my mind

And I’ve been on this one solitary path

To everything else I’ve been blind.

I could have taken the easy route,

I could have chosen to stay.

We would have still ended though

And I couldn’t have stopped my family from moving away.

So I thank my beautiful maker

And my passion to see this thing through

It goes to prove that the only person you should ever follow is you.

Sunny Sweeney - Stayings Worse Than Leaving

Listen to these lyrics. This song is so amazing. Leaving my relationship last year was one of the hardest things I have ever done, I swear I almost lost my mind. Then, leaving all my family and friends to pursue my dreams across the country tripled the difficulty of the situation. There have been so many times when I didn't think it was possible to feel more pain than I was feeling in that moment.

I miss my family and I miss my friends, but I am so glad I had the strength to foresee that I needed this growth. I needed this opportunity. I am not yet settled, but I am so glad I didn't stay, it would have been much worse than leaving.

Put Your Heart Into It - Sherrie Austin

I am so totally singing this song next time I go do karaoke at the country bar.

I even have the hair for the part. WIN.

A Poem Meant to Capture the Desperation of a Crush.

My heart is bleeding today because I know you're fading away,
It's so close that I can see the whisper of my dream but I can't reach out enough to grasp the seam.

So I slip down this gentle slope,
And fall a lover's death because even though I am right here,
You haven't seen me yet.

How can I be so drawn and barely be heard by someone so beautiful that it makes me feel absurd?

I'm just another ripple in the pond.
I'm searching through the murky water but you won't stay for long.
And I'm drowning in my hope, engulfed by all my fears.

I'm putting out the fire with plenty of my tears...

You'll never see what we could be because you'll never know the sunlight through the rain.
You'll walk right by with an umbrella,
The mask of all of my pain, while I pine what should be mine in a perfect world.
All the while you will continue thinking I'm an ordinary girl.

The barista drew a coffee cup in my froth! I am so impressed!

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"All a girl wants is for one guy to prove they're not all the same." -Marilyn Monroe

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EMF - Unbelievable

FYI, you're purple prose just gives you away.

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Epiphany

This is a habit I have to break
I give up who I am and lose my ground
No one makes me, it just overtakes me
And I end up compromising myself and my goals
It's time to recenter, it's time to gain strength
This pattern cannot continue
Desperation brings only mistakes.

I have to remember my worth and dignity
It's high time I grow up
And accept some responsibility
It's time to conduct myself more professionally.

Life is a gift, and good times should be had
But to accomplish my dreams
I've got to make the ground solid on which I stand.

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Glass Reality

Trapped in a glass box

Where the view is so clear

But I can’t reach the reality

That borders my hemisphere

I push at the walls of my boundaries

I try with all my might

But this box I’ve locked myself in

Doesn’t care what’s wrong or right

So I beat at the sides

And long for the course

I see running along the edges

Of a hopeless dreamer’s remorse

I know what I want

It’s not what I deserve

I’m reaching for empty space

I’m losing all my nerve

The world outside is humbling

Shaking up the rules of my trade

It shifts my boxed-in reality

A reminder of the deal I made.