Stay

Sometimes the World calls
and I feel myself slipping back
But then your voice whispers
Why would you want that?

The more I think about it now
The less I wanna go
All I know is
You're exactly where
I want to go

And I'm so thankful for your grace
I'm leaning heavily on your embrace

Stay, all I wanna do is stay
In your holy hands,
With an eternal love
That will never go away

Stay, all I wanna do is stay
Stay, all I wanna do is stay
Stay, all I wanna do is stay
Stay, all I wanna do is stay

It's hard when I feel the tug
of thorns in my side
When I struggle with wrong
When I know what's right

And I'm so thankful for your grace
I'm leaning heavily on your embrace

Stay, all I wanna do is stay
In your holy hands,
With an eternal love
That will never go away

Stay, all I wanna do is stay
Stay, all I wanna do is stay
Stay, all I wanna do is stay
Stay, all I wanna do is stay

You can be my hero

Sometimes the past sneaks in,
and burns your mouth,
scours on its way down,
and circles your heart again,
but then Jesus steps in,
and you remember His love,
it's a grand love, the greatest love.

And I can breathe again,
I can breathe again,
the horrors of the past,
can come to an end,

because you can be my hero,
you can be my hero,
you take my pain down to a zero,
yes, you can be my hero.

Oh, my savior, how I love your grace,
and how your mercy,
puts a smile on my face,
now I know, yes, I know,
I can let it all go.

And I can breathe again,
I can breathe again,
the horrors of the past,
can come to an end,

because you can be my hero,
you can be my hero,
you take my pain down to a zero,
yes, you can be my hero.

Keep Your Buffet

Well don’t you look so sweet and happy,

A genuine smile, an arm around her.

Don’t give me that shit about how you love her,

I know it’s all a lie,

You’ll love anyone who warms your bed,

Anyone who thinks you’re their guy.

The fact of the matter is, you need a place holder,

Someone to pass the time

While you grow up and make your way,

One by one you’ll feed them lines.

After your buffet of bullshit,

I’m too full for another course,

Keep your friendship and my wasted time,

I’m to busy to feel this remorse.

Even after five years of us,

It took me two to let you go,

From all this I don’t even have a friendship,

You’re just someone I used to know.

Sublime Summer

Why must I find something so sublime

When I have such little time

As the last lightning bugs fall from the sky

The sun will set on you and I

The winds of change are sweeping through

Reminding me not to fall for you

But I can’t change this sensation

Or the ending to this situation

In the end, reality will shut me down

And the surreal dream will be lost

With what I thought I’d found

As the season’s change into the Fall

You’ll be gone, and I’ll lose it all

Frost says dawn turns into gray

Frost says nothing gold can stay

If July could only last forever

Then we’d have a chance to learn together.

Kryptonite Boy

He’s so beautiful

I wish I could be coy

But my mind leaves me

When I see my kryptonite boy.

Kryptonite boy, Kryptonite boy,

I wish that you could see,

What you’re doing to me.

Eyes like an indigo summer,

Skin smoother than rain,

Someone come and save me,

His beauty causes me pain.

Kryptonite boy, Kryptonite boy,

I wish that you could see,

What you’re doing to me.

I just want to smile,

But I have to look away,

I wish I had the courage,

Or the ability to say:

That you make my entire day

Alive and full of light,

One smile from you,

Changes the rest of my night.

Kryptonite boy, Kryptonite boy,

I wish that you could see,

What you’re doing to me.

Kryptonite boy, Kryptonite boy,

I wish that you could see,

What you’re doing to me.

Today is change.

You’ll never make it in the familiar,

You have to jump into the strange,

In order to fly baby, your life

has to ride the wave of change.

You dream of tomorrow

while you mourn for yesterday,

It’s time to fill your tank with strength

and live for today.

A Love That Makes Me Sick

There was a time,

There was a place,

When I would smile

At the thought of your face.

Where do you go when words turn sour,

Now that the wind won’t carry these sails?

The world is twirling around me

And all I can do is fail.

It’s a continuous crumbling,

Only to rebuild it all again,

It’s like you’re my Sisyphean task,

But it’s all wrong in the end.

So I put this house together,

Brick by bitter brick,

The mortar is my devotion,

A love that makes me sick.

Tomorrow when I wake up

Bruised from what could never be,

I’ll take your sorry memory,

And let it burn throughout me.

Never meant to be

We were never meant to be

Took this way too far

Lost everything we are

So take it for what you can

Another heartbroke woman and her man

Picking up the pieces of what was

Never meant to be because

We were never meant to be

Took this way too far

Lost everything we are

Caught up in a rush

Overtaken by a dangerous crush

The nights turned into years

And our love turned into tears

We buried the hatchet as we buried our fears

We were never meant to be

Took this way too far

Lost everything we are

You’re standing here looking at me

Trying to remember what you seen

When the sparks flew that first night

Not the flames burnin’ in our fight

We tried and tried and tried

But we just can’t get it right

Boy, let me tell you why

We were never meant to be

Took this way too far

Lost everything we are

We were never meant to be

Took this way too far

Lost everything we are

I don’t understand why you have to lie

How you can say these things and look me in the eye

I can feel your deceit crawling in my skin

Makes me wonder why I ever let you in.

You’re wickedly talented but too lazy to do more

You’d rather lie around all day and pretend you’re not a whore

I have seen your kind, but I always keep an open mind

Because someday I’m hoping there’s a better version of your kind.

Love as it turns out is a Sisyphean task

I seem to have terrible taste and these assholes never last

Where are the genuine, don’t send me another who’s too weak

Pray tell me where is this magic man that I seek?

I’m growing and I’m learning, so please won’t you help me find

Another open-minded soul who’s gentle, fun and kind?

You feel like a failure
You feel like a fool
But you're just a tool
In the game of a fool

Love can be grand
And love can be great
Love's what you feel
If you found your soulmate

But then it tears you apart
And you fall to the ground
And your world falls to pieces
And scatters around

Here's to the ones who
Learned to let go
Here's to the ones
Who already know

That love can be great, yeah,
Love can be grand
I dedicate this song
To every love that I've had

And here's to the ones
Who've stood out in the cold
Here's to the ones
Who don't need to be told
That love can be cruel
Even if it was devine
It will eat you up
And shatter your spine

So here's to those
Who already know
Here's to those
Who had to let go.

This is a song for
The lonely and cold
This is a song for those
Who go it alone

If I'm to find
A love meant to last
I must first find myself
I must know who I am

Let go of co-dependence
Don't be afraid
Until you know yourself
Love won't come your way

Remember, to thine own self be true
And once you've found yourself,
True love will find you.

Have faith in the process
Don't fear the growth
We can walk this lonely road
Self discovery is wealth

Here's to the ones who
Learned to let go
Here's to the ones
Who already know

This is a song for those who want to grow
This is a song for those who know
Love can be cruel, it can make you blind
First find yourself, then you'll find your one of a kind.

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I'll weave a song for you.

This is a song I am writing, it's in the style of Mumford & Sons and Gary Laswell:

I'll weave a song for you
Using threads of love,
And pieces of my heart.

I'll weave a song for you
In the guise of night,
My soul seeks to find
Another one of a kind.

I remember the look in your eye
When nothing else felt right,
I remember the look in your eye
When nothing else felt right,

I'll weave a song for you
Using threads of my soul
And pieces of my heart,

I'll weave a song for you
Beautiful soul mate,
Hoping someday to find
Another one of a kind.

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Stop being a pest!

I have something to say

Please excuse me dear sir,

But you’ve been rather pushy

And acting immature

You send me little memos

Just to remind me you’re alive

Trying to make me jealous

Sir, you have way too much time

You pick at my silence

And analyze my every move

Stop looking for what doesn’t exist

I’m never going to love you

I’ve told you again and again

I just don’t feel the same

The more you badger and pester me

The more I’m gonna push you away

I tried to be just your friend

Can’t say I didn’t try to play nice

But your constant badgering

Has frozen my once kind heart to ice

I can’t fix your confidence or your attitude

And I refuse to sit here and pretend this isn’t rude

Don’t treat me like you own me, you haven’t got a clue

If anything little boy I would be owning you

I will chew you up and spit you out

And leaving you spinning in place,

If you don’t back off as requested

I will break that pretty little face.

XOXO

Love floats in the air like a winter snow flurry
Falling around the people who walk by in a hurry
It whispers in their ears and taps on their shoulders
Just a polite reminder that you're still growing older
Pretty soon it's shouting with anger like the thunder
Those who are lonely are left to scutter asunder
Left to face the years contemplating their blunder
While love looks for a victim who still has that child like wonder.

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Anorexia

This poem is about a battle I have seen so many young girls fight. It's heart breaking to watch, and impossible to bear. Love to those who are still fighting the battle.

I shouldn’t,

but I do.

I can’t change what I am.

You slice me with your razors

You cut me with your knives

Leave back your salty daggers

I don’t need this attack.

Pour lemon in my water

Put ice on the side

Slice the cucumbers on the table

Are you having a good time?

The sweat beads down my spine

I feel you growing in my skin

I taste your smell

I can hear your kin.

I shouldn’t,

But I do.

I can’t change what I am.

The storm outside is raging

It’s trying to get in

But I have my own battles to fight

I’m just dying to get thin.

Finding Me.

There was a time when I was wild and free

There was a time when I couldn’t find me

There was a time when I was madly in love

This is a time when I am nothing of the above.

I’m not that same little girl

Who is going to fawn all over you

I’m not lonely anymore

I know when what you say isn’t true.

I see you, I see who you are

And me, I am exactly what I need to be.

I don't have time to date.

I am glad I experienced that frenzied emotion
I learned so much from my blind devotion
Now I am stronger on my own
And no longer afraid to be alone,

Right now this is exactly what I need
To do my own thing
So I can eventually succeed.

Maybe someday I will find
A neutral companion
Equally independent
Without reckless abandon

I'm no longer worried
Because I'm in a zone
Where my world is best
When I am alone.

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Harness it.

Harness it, own it, feel it.
I let this grow so I could water it with tears,
I'm supportive of the change,
It just harbors all my fears.

I will never again cry
Like I did last September,
May brought a numbness I can't remember
You have given me lightness in the dark
And for that I appreciate you
And support this adventure on which you embark.

I don't have to be happy
I'm allowed to cry
As long as you don't see it
I can say goodbye.

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The further you pull

The harder I squeeze tight

Goodbye, farewell,

Though these words aren’t quite right,

Nothing fits and I don’t know why

I guess it’s cause I know

This isn’t goodbye.

The Path

One foot in the future

The other in the past

Your energies are shifting

Into something that could last,

You’re startled to recognize

That Spring feeling you had lost

Has started to re-grow inside

What was once covered in a frost,

I see the steps your taking

Are timid and unsure

Rest assured fate has taken

The steps to allow this to endure,

Step lightly but with confidence

Don’t dwell upon the past

Have faith in your future

You’re on the right path.

The Bell

I can hear it in the distance

The bell rings loud and clear

But the sound doesn’t reassure me

Because you’re not all here

I can feel the tickle

Of a future born of light

But if you really want it

Then you’re gonna have to fight

So can you here the Bell ring

It tolls so gentle in it’s sound

But the reverberations of the consequences

Are clanging all around

I can hear the Bell ring

I am so hungry for the sound

It’s my only forewarning

That you’re coming around

I’ve given you an inch

And you’ve taken your mile

But I must stop this melting

Of my heart when I see your smile

I am putting up my boundaries

But I’ve kept down all my walls

But if I am to have what I see

I must make you give your all

So can you here the Bell ring

It tolls so gentle in it’s sound

But the reverberations of the consequences

Are clanging all around

I can hear the Bell ring

I am so hungry for the sound

It’s my only forewarning

That you’re coming around.