Look at this,
I’ve become royalty,
Don’t mistake that
For loyalty
I’m adorned in jewels
The Princess of a parade
While Charles slinks around
With his Camela Charade
So call my Gatsby
This dreamers your patsy
I fell for a lie
With your pretend goodbye
I see you now
I see you then
I see it all
It was all pretend
You fell for an easy trap
You let him lure you
With a yap yap yap
So call my Gatsby
This dreamers your patsy
I fell for a lie
With your pretend goodbye
The pine
The pine trees are as comforting as grandmas shag carpets in the 80s
Even though the pine pollen is choking me
The sharp slap of mountain air wakes me up with vigor
Lakes and rivers are a glass reflection of a Mountain View that must be an illusion
This place can’t be real
Natures carving’s starkly aligned
As the snowy peaks of mountains stretch across the sky
Fingers of needles painting along their base
While water milks along the meadows of bison, elk and moose
I see your cars stretching in a line
Clamoring to remember a nature so sublime
Millions flock here to remember a time
When we would have died of dysentery had we tried to make it in these snow covered mountains and valleys
Nothing compares to natures mountain home,
Yes, this is Yellowstone.
My affection
Is your rejection
I’m just floating
On the clouds of love
And drowning
In the doubts
Of your treason
I keep asking for
A reason
You can’t find the words
So my mind fills in the blanks
Orange song Phoenix
Cut yourself down
And sew her back together
Too many imperfections
To keep us together
No, don’t you dare turn around
No, don’t you dare tear her down
Like a phoenix she rises with the dawn
To reshape this ground /and tear up this town /as she adjusts her crown
Like a cape of glitter you cannot hold
She’s gonna fly cause she’s just too bold
You don’t realize the power she holds
Just wait and see boy, as she flips the controls
Your gaslighting and fooling can’t last forever
You can’t keep all your lies together
No, don’t you dare turn around
No, don’t you dare tear her down
Like a phoenix she rises with the dawn
To reshape this ground and tear up this town
Just step aside while I adjust my crown
Dead dead dead
Once upon a time
I had a dream
Now it’s dead dead dead
Once upon a time you made me scream
Now nothing is said said said
Ain’t life a peach
Something bout being on a beach
Tell me your love story, let’s dine
I’ll bring the cheese you bring the wine
Once upon a time
I had a dream
Now it’s dead dead dead
Once upon a time you made me scream
Now nothings said said said
When your words fail you
Where do you go
Exhaustion flailing
I’m letting you go
Ain’t life a peach
Something bout being on a beach
Tell me your love story, let’s dine
I’ll bring the cheese you bring the wine
Once upon a time
I had a dream
Now it’s dead dead dead
Once upon a time you made me scream
Now nothings said said said
I want to dive into a deep ocean depth
Deep enough to keep my feelings at bay
Show me the depths of emptiness
Because I’m ready to crush this mess
Show me show me show me how to let it go
Show me show me show me how to let it go
When memories plague me
I dance in the depth of ink
Swirling parchment speaks
Into a mind so bleak
Show me show me show me how to let it go
Show me show me show me how to let it go
I’m in the bottoms, choking on jagged stones
Wondering where my trust can go
Once it’s been burned into my mind
I see it all the time
Show me show me show meeeee
Written to I was all over her by salvia path
Poster people
They've decided what you meant based on what you said
they've never met you but they know it's in your head
they love you they're obsessed with you
they hate how you feel
they've never seen anything at all that's real
they're not interested in your tears unless it makes them feel moved
they want the words on your papers and the blood from your feud
they wanna see you all the time
but they don't wanna know you
they hate your bad habits and they just wanna show you
how you're supposed to act
who you're supposed to be
it's getting exhausting trying to be the poster people me
I’m just over here
Reading Elizabeth Thomas verses
And wondering how hard it would be
To learn about curses
And would it make me better
To enact my revenge
Or would it leave me like Medusa
Owned by the snakes on my head
Was it sticky sweet goodness
And new found excitement for you?
Was the joy worth my undoing
A midlife crisis that I saw through…
It came as a surprise to you that I could fall out of love
And you drone on about the here and now’s
And all your improvements and work on yourself
Do nothing to change that you broke your vows
A marriage isn’t an experiment
It’s a sacred bond you make
A forever promise
That you faked.
And as the grass shudders it’s last breath, so does this chapter. Alas, a new beginning dwells, yet peers from far beyond this snowbank. And when she comes, cheekily bounding into Spring with bright and cheery dominance, she will stay as bright as a moonlit night. As hot and sticky-sweet as the sun on the Joshua tree in August. And yet, our love remains as steady as the brick in our abode, as the quartz in granite. She trudges forth, as season’s do.
